iTunes: Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Green DayToday, I accidentally stumbled upon an old friend's blog and discovered that she's getting married next month. As I was updating myself with her daily ramblings, I was quite surprise to find out, that she isn't the only person from my
sekolah rendah that will be tying a knot this year.
Last Tuesday, one of my friends back home sent me a personal invitation to her engagement party next March.
And also, another close friend is already getting busy for her big day this Feb.
Wah, so fast
eh?
As I flipped through people's graduations and weddings' pictures, I came to realize how fast people have changed for the past few years, while I'm still exactly the same 'Khaliza' they met 4 years ago; tiny and still working on something that I'm totally unsure of.
And while people busy planning their next wedding or thinking about switching job, I'm here; writing today entry and still figuring out what I should do tomorrow. Or in larger sense; thinking about how my future might look like in the next 3 years.
Poyo!
While this scenario might sound more relaxing to you, picture this: I'm 24 this year and still haven't finished my degree yet. I might be 25 next year, still doing the same thing. And 26, maybe trying desperately to complete everything before JPA cut me off. Or 27 still.. I don't know.. Studying or trying to get a job, maybe?
As I'm trying to sort everything myself, people around seem to think that I'm having the 'best time of my life'. Frankly, I just hope, every time I return home for holiday,
orang-orang kampung will stop asking when am I really going back for good. Seriously, I have no idea. And each time I think about that, it might end up to nothing. Null.
Isn't it scary to be 27 and just starting to apply the job you want?
Or 24 now and still not sure enough to figure out your own life and constanly wondering when exactly you will get a
segulung ijazah.
Btw, did I mention that my FH have never held any graduation ceremony ever?
Sedihkan?
Hmmmm..
But for one thing, I'll be paid every month just to sit around and only to study my butt off during between-life-and dead-situation. Well, that's definitely a plus, right?
Actually, that totally put a smile on my face, for now.
Dear friends,
I'm so sorry, I missed or will be missing your weddings, engagements or graduations. Wish I could be there.Labels: My iTunes, Rant
