It was a bad day. And a terrible week.
I woke up lately with messenger windows covering my beautiful-tattoo-girl-desktop. Since last week, I've been missing my morning sunshine. With my recent sleep disorder, I could only sleep when everyone's getting ready for their first class and wake up when people already rushing for lunch break. To those morning people I ignored for the last few days, I'm terribly sorry.
And I do feel sorry for myself too; as today, I collapsed the whole day without anyone ever noticed, except my roommate.
When I was getting ready for my presentation this morning, I prayed hard nothing bad happened. As it turned out, I had my bad-luck-day of the week.
Since I haven't slept for one whole day, I was hoping to be the first team to present so that I could go home early. But, as I'm unaware of the
first come first serve basis; which my other colleagues have decided today, our group was officially the last presenter of the day. With headache almost killing me and no decent food in the system since yesterday, I wasn't at my very best. I tried but I just couldn't. I was glad Lin could just deal with my cranky mood all period.
By the time I started previewing our project, my head was already felt like bagging against the wall. I took a second to look up at the audience but I couldn't. So til the end of the presentation, I read my notes,
sebijik-sebijik. I didn't explain at all which caused my team to have 15 minutes short than any other teams.
Since we were the last group and we did it in English, no one came up with any questions. I couldn't think straight either, so I was thankful that they didn't anyway. To be honest, even though our professor thought it was good, I'm still not satisfied at all. I was so frustrated because after months of preparation, I've just lost it.
And for the next half of my day, I slept like a dead man. And now, I'm forcing myself to stand up and starting working on the next project due next week.
I've stopped sending resume at the moment since I got nothing, but rejections. And fyi, the previous interview went well but still, I didn't get the job. Frustrated, but nothing I can do. I've passed that. Now, I'm left with 2 interviews which ironically so far away. I should be making appointment by now but still, I kept thinking, should I?
During this period of time, I just wanted to run and leave all of this behind, but I'm broke and I'm booked til next month. I might as well just give up, but my contract just wouldn't allow it. I try to be strong, really. That's all I'm doing at the moment; hang on til it's over.
Btw, I'm sorry for wasting your time.
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