This is the best time to use my pms card.
My mind was full with question marks. I don't know who on earth might really understand how I feel right now. Well, at least I tried but again, I got the wrong person. So a few minutes ago, I wrote her an email, which I thought at that moment will be the right way for explanation. I should have call but it was too late for emo talk. Now however, I regretted for sending it. Why shouldn't I wait til tomorrow and call? Why do I have to use that virtual way of communication which I always thought people can be faked. But I was real and I meant it all. It just that.. It felt wrong typing it instead of saying what I really wanna say. It might be better and surely interesting. I'm still wandering. And I really want to dial that number and talk. But my mind say no, so I respected that. Bummer! Why I always felt this way in the middle of the night? Why can't it be during breakfast or lunch? Wait, I haven't had breakfast since the Berlin trip and I hardly have lunch on time as well. Ok, I'm blabbering. But the point is, right now I need someone to tell me what to do. Someone who can suggest me what I should tell her and what I shouldn't. Someone who can actually listen to me but not falling asleep afterwards. I want that someone!
Sigh.
Anyone?
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