It was a terrible week. Fully exhausted, dehydrated and busy. It's been 3 weeks since I last talked to my mom which probably made it so much worse. It's been 3 weekends and it felt like hell!
I woke up last Wednesday, feeling so dry and dehydrated. My fault, I forgot to open the window and my heater was at its max the whole night. You see what's coming. For the whole day, I didn't have the energy to do anything, I was shivering but still there was stuff to be done.
On Thursday, I got the shock-of-the-day when my group failed to present our Release 1 on time. Seriously, I didn't see that coming! As far as I'm concerned, I was doing my work fine and my group leiter should present our work that day. It turned out that our GUI interface didn't function as it should be and there was misunderstanding here and there. I did sense something wrong about the way my team did the project since the 1st week, but the thing is, I thought I was the one who misunderstood. I confronted Lin, she explained the project again and I was damn right. Now everyone has to take the blame and to my defense, I was only doing the job my leiter asked me to do. That's all. Now we have to start all over again, from zero. Null. Nothing. Suckssss!
As I reached home, totally frustrated and hungry, my monitor was already waiting with messages about the 'next-big-thing'; stuff that I have to take care of; the MGSS Football Tournament. As much as I hate to be part of it (again!), there was nothing I could do to let
Kobeng down again. He really worked his ass off for the event and I just felt bad for turning him down twice. I finally took the job even though Lin deserved to handle it at the first place, since i already did the last time. But she was a big help too so I just couldn't blame her. I should thank her actually. Anyway, to this people:
Hafiz, Fina, Add, Tety, Liza, Jatt and Lin, I couldn't thank you enough for making my work easier that Friday. and my thank to all the rescuer of the day; Heilbronners and Reutlingers.
In spite of my dehydration and frustration, the event worked out fine I guess, just the way everyone has planned. The nasi lemak was yummy, the game was fun and everyone was having a great time. But I guess, Fina still couldn't accept the fact her team didn't make it to the semifinal. Heh... Well, I felt sorry for her.
Biasa la technical problem. Anyway, fyi, my group won! Hah, at least it was worth standing there til the end of the game. And for the first time ever, I enjoyed the game.
Ceh!Only on Saturday night, I have my full sleep. I woke up the next morning, feeling fresh but still with stomachache. It has been 4 days and really, it was killing me! I tried not to have coke til I'm fully recovered but what the hell. And hey, now I'm fine
.
I have a chat with
him last night and I couldn't help but wonder, do I really have to start whole over again? Is it gonna work this time? I don't know. After my life has been full of frustration and tense for the past 2 years, I felt like it's really worth to start over again. Aside of my lab software project, I really have to make everything works this time. I have to pass my Informatics 2 paper and get my vordiplom before next sem, I have to attend every classes and try not to miss any assignments and projects etc. It sure hell will work if I try. At least this time, I'm doing it for myself and if it doesn't turn out the way i planned, maybe it's not the right place for me. But there always be another place, right?
Maybe it's just time to be straight and stop pretending that everything is fine all the time. Maybe one step at a time will do. But in my case, lots of steps. I'm still blur. But you know what, like everyone always says everything is going to be fine, so don't worry.
To this
guy, thanks for the time. To you, here's your
takeaway and have a nice day!
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