I read a friend's blog and I came across a tragic lost of 2
Malaysians in Ann Arbor who was hit by a truck on their way back from mosque yesterday. I didn't know these girls but i know the fact that they are students, like me. So, they should be around my age. And it suddenly hit me.
For the past couple of days, I have an emotional breakdown. I was so down and my spirit seemed to fade away. I tried to concentrate but it didn't work. I kept thinking about giving up and I almost did. I tried not to cry, but I failed. I tried not to share but I did.
I haven't talked to my mum for 2 weeks so that might be the reason. Apart from that, I was so tired. I felt like I can't take this anymore and the last thing I wanna do is giving up. I wanna talk to someone; maybe Fina. But the thing is, last weekend, we have a blast, talking for hours on phone updating each other on everything. The 'problem' didn't slip my mind at that moment so I didn't tell her anything. Today, when I was about to talk to her, I didn't feel like it. She has done a lot so let her deal with her own stuff.
When I stared at Yahoo messenger last night, I saw his id. He has never been the closest one but I feel comfortable telling him stuff once in while. We don't message or talk a lot but I know, he's a great listener and someone I could trust. I told him something back then that I never tell anyone else. Until now, the subject never come up and I'm glad. Every times I need him, he never fail me. Last night, we have the 'talk'. I told him what was on my mind and he listened. For a few minutes, he just let me talk and after that, he said his words. It helped a bit as I did feel better.
To him, thanks a lot.
Kan best kalau tetiba kite kene culik ngan makhluk asing ke, stranded kat planet lain ke kejap.. Takyah pikir masalah. When Intan once said that, I laughed. But now, I wished it happens.
Kene culik ngan a guy like Zachary from Perfect tu ok gak ek? Anyway, the bottom line is, the problem is still there.
Kene settle gak camne pun. I can only try but whether it works or not,
tawakal la. I still don't know if things are going to be fine tomorrow but I hope it's better. I really do.
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