I was kinda sad today. I have a totally bad week; with hot weather as high as 40°c, almost all day this week and I just hope things will go right this weekend as I planned to go to Reutlingen. But I know it won't help that much. I was supposed to get my package today but I didn't. Anyway, it's not the time to blame anyone.
This morning, I got email from Fina. It wasn't a good news. Her mom is in hospital right now. She has problem with her lung and then after operation, there was another major problem, something about internal bleeding or something, I'm not sure but she's in ICU now. To make matter worse, his dad apparently has 'darah tinggi'. Both of them in Hospital Melaka. Both!
I remembered 'email'ing her last night; being all happy and excited since she had a pretty hard time last time I messaged her. I thought maybe it might help to be funny about it. But when I got her email with another bad news today, it broke my heart, totally. I didn't know what to do. I wasn't there with her, I couldn't call her since she's surely in hospital most of the time, taking care of her parents.
I felt useless! I've been trying to keep myself busy today, not to think about it. But the more I'm not, the more it pressured me. I didn't reply her email yet as I didn't know what I supposed to tell her. I always use humor as part of healing process; which is weird but true. That's the way we handle thingd and it works for both of us so far. I feel better telling her everything; from sad to happy one, coz we would laugh at it in the end.
Man, I hope she's ok. They will be fine. That's what I keep telling myself all day. And they will, insyaAllah.
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