khaliza

Hello again!

2012-01-04T15:36:00.002+01:00

I miss this. I miss my blog. I miss my space. I miss my time. I miss me!

I made a list

2009-07-11T16:15:00.002+02:00

Life is plain (which is why I don't update anymore), just like any other day, except that

1. I'm no longer a fan of coffee.

2. Eating KFC makes me burping all night. So I'm avoiding it for now. Damn it!

3. I can no longer fit into most of my clothes. I cannot fit into any of my pants now without leaving the button open and I keep recycling my work attire every week. So frustrating OK!

4. I have to force myself to drink powder milk every single day which tastes like ughhhh.

5. I cannot eat rice after 7 pm. I don't know if this is true yet but I threw up yesterday and the only thing I can put the blame on is the nasi lemak I took for dinner.

6. I prefer fish than chicken. I hope this won't last though.

7. I burp most of the time now, except when I'm shopping. OK, I made that up. But I really didn't when I spent the whole day in the mall today, so what did that tell you?

8. I'm more exhausted than before. Lazier even.

9. I complain more than I used to, now that I have all the above.

10. I'm pregnant!

The Ramen Girl

2009-05-03T15:47:00.001+02:00

I don't know why people hate this movie. I love it! I didn't watch the Tampopo, not that I plan to anyway. But who cares if the original one is better!

Anyway, I simply like this movie for two reason: hilarious and the message. The Ramen Girl made me realize how important it is to put all of your heart into your cooking. Otherwise, it won't taste special and bland, just like any other cooking.

Like last week, I cooked my favorite dish (who happened to be his too) and it didn't turn out as I expected it to. I try to put blame on everything - the santan, asam keping, everything! But later after I watched this movie, I soon figured out that it is not because of the ingredient or I did anything differently than before. It's just that I didn't do it wholeheartedly. I did it because he requested for it like non stop since a month ago and I felt bad, so I cook. Whereas when we were couple back then, I cooked with all the love in the world for this man, who travelled 2 hours by train just to see me. So there you go, I am a bad wife!

Today, I make a promise to myself that next time, when I cook for him, I will put all my love and heart to it, no matter what. No matter how tired or lazy I am, I will cook like the ramen girl :).

Forever21 clutch

2009-05-01T16:35:00.001+02:00

We were watching Chuck yesterday and so surprise to see the clutch her sister was wearing to her rehearsal dinner!

Yes, it was exactly like the clutch I bought from Forever21. Sebijik OK! Hahahahha... Forever21 must have ripped off that design from some designer clutch that I don't know of! Still, it looks nice on the big screen, don't you think?

Clutch shopping

2009-04-28T15:40:00.009+02:00

I desperately need an evening clutch - for weddings and dinners.

I do have one in closet, bought two years ago and I've been wearing it to most weddings that now, it becomes pretty boring. And I did buy the Topshop clutches last month but I don't think it's elegant enough to wear for weddings. They are too casual and leathery (is that even a word?).

I got two weddings to attend this weekend and more to come by the end of the month, so I must get it before Friday at least. How hard could it be right?

I searched for a decent one today at Pavillion, yet the only clutch that suit my taste was a simple black satin clutch by Forever21 priced at 59 bucks. Although it sounds like a plain choice, I bought it still incase I don't have time to find better one by the end of the week. I did saw selection of blink blink wedding clutches at Tangs but my only concern is they seemed too flashy for me. Or is that how wedding clutch supposed to look like? Seriously, I have no idea!

Does anyone know where I can find a decent, beautiful wedding clutch priced below 200?

Anyway, these are clutches I would die to have but of course, exceptionally overpriced.

(l-r) Bottega Veneta, Christian Louboutin, Christian Louboutin, Anya Hindmarch, Lanvin

By the way, I spotted something similar to Anya's at MNG but it's in neon. Very striking!

Redang trip

2009-04-25T16:27:00.009+02:00

There goes my Wednesday

2009-04-22T13:32:00.007+02:00

This was Sunday, when I spent most of the time laying on the beach, nothing to worry. Nothing to do. Nothing to go to.

Today however, I'm back to become workaholic, demotivated and busy. Busy as bee. I have sessions already scheduled til August, 5 reports to be done by end of this week and customers' issues that need to be resolved asap. I have errands to run by weekends, pay my credit cards and do my tax before end of this month. Husband already booked saturday evening for a friend's son birthday party and we have appointment with insurance agent this Friday. A lot of to do list, a lot of things to attend to.

Ok, I'm whiner, I got that. But all of these are too overwhelmed right now that I wish I can still lay on beach with nothing in mind.

Can I do just that?

Off to Redang

2009-04-17T03:43:00.002+02:00

After weeks of deadlines, urgent sessions and reports, I desperately need this getaway. Work has driven me insane!

So, I'm off to Redang. Can't wait to lay on beach and think nothing! Adios!

Cover duped

2009-04-12T11:54:00.006+02:00

I just discovered that the Elle cover that Whitney and Olivia were fighting their credit for was a total LIE! I bought the back issue today and it looks nothing like the one I saw in The City!

Does this mean, the whole DVF thing is also a blatant lie? Does Whitney even work there?

I'm confused.

Clearing my closet

2009-03-31T16:48:00.008+02:00

I need to clear out my closet ASAP. I'm out of space to put all the clothes and I still have pile of unpacked stuff during the German's years that either don't fit anymore or not suitable to wear for my age and weather. Jeans, sweaters, cardigans, turtlenecks, glove, shawl. You name it! By the way, buying a new wardrobe is not an option here, FYI.

Can anyone tell me where I can donate old clothes? They are all in good condition, some even brand new. If you know a place I can drop these junks, preferably near Shah Alam, please kindly inform ok. I tried to google it but so far, still no luck. Help!

My first bonus

2009-03-25T12:15:00.008+01:00

Great news, the bonuses are in!!!! I was over the moon!!!

That was the initial reaction - the moon, the joy, the top of the world. But after I sat down, look back at the numbers and calculate all the planned expenses and saving, I went back to demotivated, a little bit frustrated and ungrateful as my husband puts it.

Sorry to admit, people are all materialistic, and I'm no exception. I know, I should be thankful because with all the recession that has been going on for a few months now, I can still get bonuses and keep my job. Maybe I was putting such high hopes, something beyond unrealistic, and I should stop doing that!

So, I am going to stick to the original plan and put the house fund as the first priority. Yes, that's the plan!

Things to buy with bonus money

2009-03-20T16:15:00.003+01:00

The result was in, I'm save from the retrenchment. Alhamdulillah. Since then, I've been counting days for the bonus payment, which I have no clue when. Hopefully by end of this month though.

While waiting for that other good news, I made a list of things to do with the money. Things I wish to get.

1. LV Damier Azur or Damier Canvas Speedy 30
Ok, I love the Azur for like forever. It's my dream bag. But it's soft color, which of course hard to maintain - which might be the main reason why more people prefer the latter than the former. I still prefer Azur though but I've seen too much of Canvas lately that I'm torn between these two. But I got plenty of time to decide. Hopefully when the time comes, I'll be able to make my own decision and make sure I really BUY it!

2. Wallet
I've been using the same wallet for 5 years now and it became impractical these days when I have so much to stuff in - business cards, discount cards, credit cards, coins. So I need bigger space and I found some on internet but super pricey for my taste. What I really want is something like Bottega Veneta Woven Zip-Around Wallet or Gucci Continental Wallet. Like a zippy wallet kind of thing. I'm still searching for a nice, affordable one though.

3. A Topshop clutch (maybe both)

4. Tissot watch

iPhone OS 3.0

2009-03-19T15:47:00.011+01:00

Mom always laughs at my iPhone's lack of features especially the copy/paste and forwarding sms. She would purposely ask me someone's number and instead of jotting down the number to her phone herself, she requested me to forward la, copy/paste the number la. Not that she didn't know that my iPhone can't do those things!

Yesterday, Apple unveil the best news ever! iPhone will finally has its own copy and paste! And it is not an ordinary cut/paste like most phones OK! It can copy/paste almost everything - phone numbers, text and html too! You can even copy and paste photos OK! If you change your mind, you can shake to undo and shake it again to redo. How freaking awesome is that!!

Besides copy/paste, iPhone OS 3.0 also features forwarding sms and get this, system-wide searching tool namely Spotlight, which allows us to search anything from all the key applications - mail, calendar, iPod. EVERYTHING! Super cool OK!

Although all these features are only available this summer, I so cannot wait to ring mom tomorrow to spill the great news!

Confessions of a Shopaholic

2009-03-09T05:45:00.010+01:00

Ok, I'm going to be really honest.

I am a little, tiny bit frustrated about how the movie turned out. While the Confessions of a Shopaholic is witty and entertaining, I do feel that the books are way better than the movie itself. I know, adaptation always ends up not as good as the big screen, which is why I give this movie a go.

Still, I have been waiting for this movie for so long and I really hope it turned out the way I always picture it to be. But it wasn't. So, of course I'm disappointed. And as the screenplay was based on the two books, the plot felt a bit messy, scattered and rushed. The unnecessary made-ups like the gardening magazine, Alette, the Manhattan setting, Becky an American and Luke Brandon an editor-in-chief just don't relate to the books at all.

Maybe this movie did not excite me as much as I thought it would. Yet, it doesn't mean it was a bad movie. Not at all. In fact, you should see it yourself, especially to all the shopaholic out there. It was enjoyable, even my husband thinks it was hilarious. Just don't put your hope too high to those who have read the series.

By the way, the movie will be out on March 26th. Go see it ok!

Preview of Confessions of a Shopaholic

2009-03-06T16:19:00.004+01:00

Guess what, I won two tickets to watch the preview of Confessions of a Shopaholic tomorrow!!!!!!! Yes, I got to see it 3 weeks before the actual release date! I'm beyond excited OK!!!!

I soooo cannot wait!!!!

Fashion File: Making Hermes Bags

2009-03-05T13:42:00.004+01:00

This video is really interesting. Got it from Closet Therapy. I always wonder why people make such fuss over the Birkin bag - the long waiting list etc etc, so now I know. Heck, I want to be in the list too if I can afford it!

Goodbye Grissom

2009-03-02T14:39:00.001+01:00

Grissom left?

How on earth did I miss this? Seriously. I completely have no clue until I watched the ninth installment of the latest season yesterday. I thought it was a temporary but, I've googled and he really had left! They even have a new character to replace him! Shocking OK!

Well, at least his final two episodes were the best! The ending was brilliant!

Still, I can't believe he's really gone.

Things I miss about Deutschland

2009-02-27T12:10:00.007+01:00

1. Shopping at H&M.

2. Not having to think twice to buy coffee at Starbucks anytime.

3. SUBWAY tuna sandwich in Heilbronn. They taste way better than the one they served here.

4. No traffic jam! Malaysia's road system is just stupid, unorganized and let's not talk about that freaking toll!

5. Snow.

6. Super fast internet connection.

7. Brötchen at Kamps!

8. Kebab auf teller at Sultanyar Kebab.

9. All flavored ice cream at 60 cents. And you can simply get Haagen Dazs (500ml tub) Cookies and Cream for 5 EURO ONLY.

10. Beautiful, clean parks where we can have barbecue and makan-makan on weekends.

11. Public transport.

12. Punctuality.

13. Easy to plan for vacation - always economical and it was Europe ok!

14. Online shopping was always problemlos.

Warehouse sales

2009-02-21T17:37:00.009+01:00

I always had a bad luck when it comes to warehouse sale. The FJ Benjamin sale I attended last year was a disaster. I queued for half an hour, the hall was jam-packed with people trying to grab everything they could and none of the items were in size S and 5/37. They should put that in the ad!

The second one was Dior Cosmetics Warehouse Sale but that one didn't turned out great either. I shouldn't have come at the first place anyway.

So, last Thursday when I read about another warehouse sale, I wasn't thrilled at all. I bet this one would be just like any other, disappointing. But when I told Danielle during lunch, she got really excited and really eager to go. And she's not going alone so I have to go with her. Well, not really "have to". I actually read somewhere that this sale has the Burberry London I always wanted for only RM120 (100ml)! They also got SJP Lovely 50ml for RM70, when I paid like RM190 last time.

So yes, that got me excited. And it was even better when we reached there, the place was not packed yet. Just like I always want a warehouse sale to be. Everything was 50-70% off and they offered good brands as well - Burberry, Hermes, Ferragamo, JPG, Guerlain, Bvlgari, Marc Jacobs, SJP etc. But since I only went on their 3rd and very last day, most of the best stuff were gone already. Lovely sold out, Burberry Brit Sheer gone. But still, I managed to grab Burberry London (100ml - RM120), Guerlain Insolense (2X30ml - RM90) and Ferregamo Incanto Heaven (100ml - RM120).

I don't think I'll ever buy perfume at the counter anymore!

Weekend on February

2009-02-14T09:55:00.007+01:00

12:25 AM: Still frustrated that Shopaholic is not out yet!

11:00 AM: Watched Vicky Cristina Barcelona.

12:30 PM: I still don't get why this movie won Best Picture Musical/Comedy for Golden Globe. Is it because of the girl on girl kiss? But I love the cinematography. Showing the beautiful side of Barcelona and another place I don't know in Spain. Gorgeous!

01:00 PM: Out to lunch and we both discussed why on earth we didn't go to Spain during our studies.

01:30 PM: Off to Soho KL to check out Bijou Bazaar. So excited!

02:00 PM: Arrived at Soho KL. The place is huge! And the bazaar was nice. There were vintage stuff everywhere - cool sunglasses, belt and shirts. Yet the husband was rushing to go home. He used his usual excuse, sakit perut. I hate it when he rushes me while I'm looking through stuff. By the way, I met Yuna. Dia senyum, I should have asked for her EP.

03:30 PM: Reached home. Still frustrated about the Bijou Bazaar. I went home empty handed.

05:00 PM: Need to wake husband up. We're going back to Seremban. He's off to Kuching for a week. I'm going to miss him terribly :(.

Happy weekend everyone!

Missing opportunity

2009-02-13T09:03:00.006+01:00

I just received a rather disappointing news.

Early this week, someone booked us a very nice hotel as a wedding gift. So, we immediately booked the flight and applied leave for it. So that was a good news.

Yesterday, my husband shared another exciting news. He was offered to go to New Zealand. But.. we are not going. Why? Well, the trip is actually during the week we are taking leave. So, his place was replaced by another colleague, who lucky enough not taking leave during that period. Damn it!!!!!!!

At last

2009-02-08T16:50:00.010+01:00

I'm blogging again, and I got a new layout. Finally.

I am busy this past few months. With the wedding and all. But it's done now so I'm now married to a person I used to hate the most and then, love the most. So, it's basically karma. A good one, of course. Is there such thing as good karma?

Anyway, I love every part of marriage. I'm just lucky, that's the way I put it :D.

I know the wedding was 3 months ago but thank you very much to those who came to the solemnization and reception. I wish I can send each of you a thank you card, but I'm in the middle of tight budget now that my husband keeps track of everything I buy. From shoes to bathroom mats - everything needs to be updated in our iPhone budget tool. As much as I object to jotting down everything I spend, I'm doing my best to make him happy. Plus, we are paying the house soon, so this might help us a bit later. Changes don't always mean bad, right?

By the way, here are some of the moments I would cherish forever. I'm so glad I chose them to capture everything because the photos turned out absolutely perfect! Definitely worth every penny.

The solemnization

2009-02-07T16:02:00.006+01:00

Plan B

2009-02-06T17:56:00.000+01:00

I prayed really hard that this day will never come. No matter how bad the situation is, I thought that we would survive.

But last week, SAP finally announced that they are laying off 3000 people. I almost dropped my coffee when they broke the news. Completely, utterly shocked! And since then, different rumors surface every single day - which made mornings now so dreadful!

I try my best to stay positive. But it's never easy! Especially during times like this. I really hope things will get better soon. By soon, I mean next week. Or next month. Please! Else, I might need a Plan B.

2008 was awesome

2009-01-08T14:01:00.003+01:00

1. He purposed

2. I got engaged.

3. I bought a dream house.

4. I got married.

5. I got a long waited iPhone. Not 3G.

6. I'm living with him. Everyday now is fun, fun, fun :P.

5 days to go

2008-10-18T18:50:00.009+02:00

I'm still jet lagged. And a bit nausea, I think. I don't know if something I ate on the plane or I didn't eat much the whole day. Or everything might be too overwhelmed for me at the moment. And when I saw my boyfriend reciting Yassin during kenduri doa selamat this evening, I still could not believe that I am going to be his wife in just a few days.

I don't have time to breathe since landing. There were so many things to take in and couple of matters that need to attend to. My guest list has grown larger than I expected. So I have some shopping to do tomorrow. I have some friends that I haven't sent invitation yet. So, post office this Monday. And I have to pick up wedding dresses on Tuesday. By the way, I have tried them today and they were great. They fit great, just some touch up to do. But all in all, they were better than I expected. Alhamdulillah.

So, so far so good. Super. All I need now is rest because I don't have much since arrived and I am totally kaputt, I couldn't even feel my legs!

Weekend in India

2008-10-11T19:17:00.011+02:00

I CAN'T STAND INDIA.

It's hot, crowded, noisy and absolute madness! Cows are everywhere - middle of the road, outside the office, construction sites, you name it! And no one dare to honk them! The drivers were like honking to each other but not to the cows. Stupid!

With all the reasons above, I decided to stay home this weekend. Going out means headache and heat and noise and dehydration. Even if this the only chance I got to experience India, so be it. Plus, I'm not planning to get sick so near to my wedding day.

Speaking of wedding, I already settled most of the things before flying to India. Only some minor details left, so mom will take care of those while I'm away. I left the wedding book to her, just incase. Oh yes, I have a wedding book!

Wow, I can't believe it's really going to be a wedding! In 13 days! I'm super excited OK! Just too bad I have to go through this hell, before I can fly home and marry the man I love.

Please, let tomorrow be 17th.

Wedding dress

2008-09-14T05:47:00.002+02:00

It was 2 months before the big day and I already booked mak andam, cards, photographer and caterer. Everything seemed to fall into places. It was all good.

Well, at least that what I thought.

Yesterday supposed to be my very first dress fitting. Instead, the mak andam called and informed me that the dress wasn't ready. But it has been a month already! So, mom insisted on checking out the dress. Only then, she was told that the lavender french lace I bought RIPPED. Can you believe that? Yes, KOYAK RABAK!

Of course, they have to replace it! And mom specifically asked them to go to the place we got it and choose the material she precisely wanted. Just now, I received the call from them, asking us to see the material they bought.

I am so nervous OK! I really hope they found something better than the one we picked. Or good enough. I don't care, as long I got something decent to wear for the reception.

I'm off now to see the mak andam.

Updated: The lace was acceptable. The wedding is back on.

Mess

2008-09-09T17:43:00.006+02:00

I'm such a mess.

None of wedding dresses are ready yet.

I'm getting bored of work already.

Everything needs to be done before Raya as I am going to India for 2 weeks next month - Bosan!

The to-do list is getting longer each day. Benci!

I still could not get my hand on iPhone. I want it so bad, sampai termimpi-mimpi.

Haaaaiiiiiihhhhhhhhh.

I need a break!

2008-07-01T05:13:00.005+02:00

Everything went wrong at work since Monday, which put me in the foulest, nastiest mood ever. I lost interest to do what I basically love to do everyday and I'm not even looking forward to go to work today, tomorrow and the rest of the week.

I feel so demotivated. Can I just go home and plan the wedding instead?

I need a break! Pronto!

Kursus kahwin

2008-06-16T04:39:00.012+02:00

I had an unexpectedly enjoyable time with friends as we attended kursus kahwin together somewhere near Damansara over the weekend. It was informative, refreshing, eye opener - everything that I didn’t anticipate it would be.

Now, I really cannot wait to get married!

Hormones

2008-06-07T07:27:00.000+02:00

I got all weepy this week about every single thing.

First, I cried because my dad scolded me for being chicken. Then, I cried over the fact that my brother had to walk all the way from Phileo Damansara to Asia Jaya station because of that stupid oil crisis.

And the most embarrassing one happened just yesterday, when I went window shopping with my fiancé!

I know I shouldn't have cried. Not in front of the public. He looked so worried, assuming he must have done something terrible, which of course he didn't. And just when he tried to be sweet and all, I cried. Yes, I CRIED.

Stupid hormones!

On track

2008-05-28T11:00:00.009+02:00

Don't you hate it when you snatched up something so fancy, but have to wait for another 5 months to wear it? Heck, I do!

I didn't expect the mood for wedding shopping would kick off this soon. Yet the clearance sale is so tempting! How could I ever resist that?

So here I am, staring at the same paper bag, gently put it on for a few seconds and then, pack it back into the bag, where it belongs. It happened everyday now and will be until the big day! I know! I hate it too! My fiancé is just mean for making me do it! Ok, that's overstating. But, it was his idea to have it as one of the hantaran! Although... I might be the one who negotiated it with him at the first place. I shouldn't have made that promise. Bad idea!

On the other hand, good news for mom, I am officially back on track with the wedding plan. You know, since I was pretty occupied purchasing something else months back. Anyway, I'm more ecstatic now than ever. So it's all good, I guess. I get to shop around for it, what's not to like?

Still, I have a long list to do. I haven't decided on what color to wear. I haven't chosen which bridal boutique to book for the dress and pelamin. I still don't have any official photographer. I bought only one of the hantaran but still lots of shopping NEED to be done(I love it when shopping is a necessity. Heheh).

To summarize, I basically haven't done anything yet. Zilch. Mom freaked out a bit, as always. Pressuring me to start on at least something but I still think we got plenty of time to arrange those. No worries.

I'm thinking of putting together my own wedding binder just like this.

Like I would ever had time to do that!Tapi cute kan!

Photo by Closet Theraphy

Weekend of nothing

2008-05-17T09:33:00.003+02:00

Finally, weekend!

God knows how much I really need this weekend for myself. I am tired of cleaning up other people's mess all week, I'm tired of trying to cover every people mistakes all the time. This week was HELL! And no one like being cranky all the time. So exhausting! The only person that keep me sane entire day at the office was the person who wasting his precious time taking this awful photo.

So I need this weekend to be just about nothing. Nothing whatsoever to think about. No place that I need to go to. No to do list. Nothing. Just leave me doing whatever I want to do OK?

Now I'm watching Man of The House with dad. So, good day!

Love for Iron Man

2008-05-17T08:38:00.002+02:00

My fiancé enjoys Iron Man. Me too. I love Robert Downey Jr. He too. Kan, kan? Hehehe.

The last time I saw him was in Ally McBeal and now I'm head over heel for him again. I mean, who wouldn't? And who would've thought that Pete, the Monica's millionaire boyfriend can produce such awesome movie! I cannot wait for the sequel!

Long vacation

2008-05-14T18:29:00.005+02:00

I'm longing for a very long holiday. I'm talking months here OK. I just couldn't bear thinking about work anymore. So stressful!!!!

Take me to the beach, please!

Wish list: Louis Vuitton Watercolor Speedy

2008-05-08T17:04:00.000+02:00

Ok, I know this is so out of my league but still, wish list can be anything right? At least that what my wish list is. Plus, I haven't been updating the list since January so if you ask what I want, I want this.

April

2008-05-03T10:39:00.005+02:00

April spells good, exciting news.

As some already heard, we purchased a house 3 weeks ago. It all happened in a flash when we decided to put our saving for the deposit of the property and somehow booked the house just after checking it out for the first time. I know, it sounds crazy and insane. But we already looked around other places like Denai Alam, Sunway Kayangan, Setia Alam etc. Nothing can top this one. N-O-T-H-I-N-G. This was like love at the first sight. This is the house we always dream of.

So, numerous loan applications came soon after. After all the hassle, hectic weekends, emergency leaves, anxiety attacks, we finally secured the house. It's ours at last. Haaahhhhhhhhh. I'm so excited, no words can describe. Tunang saya lagi la. Almost everyday talking about how to decorate every single room. Soooo cute OK :P.

Now two months later, I can relax on May. Endlich. For starters, this week I be able get back to wasting my weekends - napping, surfing, watching some movies, finishing through unread RSS, reading some past magazines - and oh my God, I love her closet. Look.

Also, free weekend means getting back to planning the wedding, which I seemed to neglect since the house purchase. Frankly, I didn't do much since a month ago. But what's the rush? I have 6 solid months OK!

Sempurna

2008-04-12T17:18:00.001+02:00

iTunes : Sempurna - Andra And The Backbone

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku
Lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku, kau begitu
Sempurna

I believe it all started when he told me that he already informed his parents about his plan to marry me. The news came as surprise to me since he has never purposed the idea at the first place. Ok, he did jokingly ask me a couple of times before and his sudden urge to buy a new house for us but that was it. We had nothing planned whatsoever since that chat and I don't think he could be THAT serious.

The next thing I know, he organized a lunch date for the first time with his parent but that plan was changed to rombongan merisik instead, a few days before the actual day. Besides, the engagement itself supposed to be on April, but that was fast forwarded too, to March 29th. Although I hate the fact that he switched the plans to the very last minute, I can't help giggling when he purposed to have it on my birthday. Oh come on, that's sweet OK.

Since then, everything happened so fast for me to keep track of. Mom was the most excited and busiest person; arranging the catering, hantaran and things that are required for the event. I was just agreeing to everything, to be honest. Well, she's the best and I know whatever things she decided on will turn brilliant.

And he has been a big help too. Even with all the chaos and the last minute plan, I have no complain whatsoever as everything turned out to be the sweetest things he has ever done so far. Nothing can top those three weeks I spent before the engagement.

Syukur alhamdulillah, things ran smoothly on the engagement day. It was sunny and bright all day, the food was delicious, the crowds were amazing and supportive and the whole event was a total blast. Love it, love it, love it.

And now that we are happily engaged, I'm so looking forward for the next big step with him :P.

I love you.

House with shoe room

2008-04-08T15:58:00.000+02:00

O-M-G! We bought a house! A dream house. OUR dream house. Ok, maybe it isn't ours yet. Not until the loan approved..

But still, WE BOUGHT A HOUSE!! House with my own shoe room!

So, you've heard

2008-03-31T10:04:00.007+02:00

I am officially engaged.

Alhamdulillah, everything ran smoothly. Just like I pictured it to be. I'll update on it later, I promised. Thing has been so out of hand lately, so let me settle one thing at the time ok.

In the mean time, here's some Kodak moment from the event. Sorry I didn't inform everyone earlier. But I thank you all for all the congrats and birthday wishes. Saya sangat terharu :P.

Cloud 9

2008-03-01T16:01:00.003+01:00

I am utterly surprise, ecstatic, thrilled, nervous, exhausted, stressed out and worried - all at the same time! And it drives me crazy that I have to keep my mouth shut at least for the next few weeks, until everything is almost over.

But, at least I can do what I love to do the most, all those coming weekends - Shopping :P.

Getting things done

2008-02-15T20:17:00.001+01:00

It's 2:30pm.

Yet, I'm still having the reruns of Project Runaways so that I could cross it out from the list. Yes, I have "watching project runaway" in my To-do list, besides completing the Grey's, Prison Break latest season and reading the past two months issue of Female. Sad isn't it? Even the tiny little fun stuff need to be scheduled.

I have a lot in mind that I need to figure out how to basically finish everything before work starts on Monday. I know, hectic. But it's not so much of energy left, so I'm done for the day. Besides, I try not to keep the pressure high during weekends because I don't think I could handle it anymore. 5 days are enough OK.

Plus, I do think I need help. Medical help.

Last week, mom made this rule not to ever touch the laptop at home on weekdays, which means no surfing whatsoever. It's not about the bill really, although it could be one of the benefits. Just that, since the I-could-not-breathe incident, mom is really concern of my "workaholic" situation. At least that what she think it is. She believes that I overwork and neglect the rest I should have - which causing me to have the "stress symptom" and blood circulation problem like you know, sometimes having a difficulty to breathe properly or sudden headache. Whilst she's not a doctor, I seem to believe everything she said. Plus, it puts me to ease too, knowing that she also experienced the same thing before. At least I can reassure myself for now that it isn't cancer or heart problem.

So, tomorrow was arranged for either a full body scan or at least a simple medical checkup. But looking at the list now, I don't think I could make it for neither. It just that, I have this session with one of the valuable customer last Wednesday and it's already Friday. I'm still preparing the report and I have to ensure I could get it done by Monday. Otherwise, there would be loads of explanation to do, which I hate and nervous about.

So maybe next week.

Shit! I have plan next week!

Reruns of Greys

2008-02-10T14:19:00.000+01:00

There's nothing I love more than having a 'alone time' with McDreamy on weekends. You know, besides spending time with him and family, of course. And shopping.

OK now that first line is kinda ruined. Damn it!

Surprise me

2008-02-09T13:08:00.000+01:00

I know it's only February. Yet I've already been laid out a plan for the whole year.

Although it is quite a lot to be taken in right now, I am tickled pink. And I'm really looking forward for more great surprises this year :).

Hopefully.

Gorgeous black

2008-02-04T16:39:00.000+01:00

Something caught my eye today.

And seeing it for the first time here made it even more interesting.

It's the Morning After Mini Bag by Rebecca Minkoff. Sangat, sangat gorgeous ok. And one of the managers owns it. I'm green with envy.

In other news, I'm swamped with work this week. Overwhelming, but in a fun and good way ;P. And from what I heard, right after Chinese New Year, the load will be piling up for us newbies. So, stay tuned!

Still in love with my job

2008-02-01T10:59:00.000+01:00

I am so pathetic. Yes, I said it.

Here I am watching my favorite channel, E! yet I'm still bored. All I kept thinking about is work, sessions, reports etc etc etc.

I know, I've been longing for public holidays, weekends every single day. But now when that day finally arrived, I couldn't figure out what to do. U-n-b-e-l-i-e-v-a-b-l-e!

I need new books! Or a part time job that can pay me more so that I can shop without being broke!

Bored

2008-01-25T10:05:00.000+01:00

I reached office earlier than usual only to realize that I have nothing to do today.

Just a few days back, I was rushing for the delayed sessions and reports for QA, and now I got nothing left to do. Nada! I'm dead bored! I surfed but with such small windows, you know there's nothing exciting about that!

I love my job

2008-01-22T19:08:00.000+01:00

I had a so-so week last week, as most of the time was spent waiting - Waiting for phone calls, emails, 2nd level messages, QA, feedback etc etc. Everyone hates waiting!

Thus today, I was so worn out trying to finish up the delayed sessions. Not that I have never had backlogs before, but since we already completed the training and exam, should be no more excuses for such thing.

And the guys seemed to think that the customers bullied me already. Mana ada! Like today, I have to put some note, like a form of explanation to his boss on how the system supposed to be set up. I don't think it's a big deal. Although I do believe that it was his part of the job but it was nothing, really. Just a note. So what, I have to verify with 2nd level about that note I put for his boss and wait for a few days for that clarification. No biggie! Nothing.

I love this job! Period!

Happy weekend!

2008-01-19T18:52:00.000+01:00

iTunes: Untuk Pertama Kali - Kerispatih

Life has been better since Wednesday as the silent treatment was finally over. Thank God.

Although, the splurging is still going strong as ever.

Today, we strolled along Jalan Telawi, Bangsar and that place can be like heaven once in a while. Particularly, bila gaji baru masuk! And if you asked me, it's definitely worth every penny. And time. And energy, climbing those stairs. I know... I never ever going to be the best window shopper. EVER.

Future home

2008-01-14T18:09:00.001+01:00

It is always a good sign when the other half already planned to buy a house for both of us to live in. Better, he already found one and asked you to check it out with him. But definitely not good when he started talking about saving some money for it. Oh, that's really a mood killer.

2008 Wish list (so far)

2008-01-13T15:37:00.000+01:00

iTunes: Bubbly - Colbie Caillat

My oh my.

I've been splurging like there's no tomorrow, this past two months. It didn't occur to me that much, not until I realized I have bought a rack of shoes, totes, tops and pants for less than 8 weeks! Plus, I suddenly crave for my own "Shoe room" as Becky Bloomwood calls it, which something I will work on, no matter what he said.

Today, even without malls, I still managed to do my own window shopping, through internet la, of course. And here goes this year wish list so far:

1. iPod Touch

2. LV Damier Azur Speedy 30 or LV Monogram Mini Lin Croisette Speedy 30

3. Tissot T-Wave Watch

4. Daisy Marc Jacobs

I told you so

2008-01-12T13:43:00.000+01:00

I'm beyond upset right now. I'm 26, soon to be 27! I'm allowed to choose what I want to do career wise.

But she's still mad at me. She did talk for the first few days although everything seemed so hurtful. Now, she won't even talk to me, let alone make jokes with me. Even if I'm left alone with her in the same room, she wont say a word, not even try to make conversation. Oh God, help me!

I'm still standing firm on the decision I made. Not even a moment I'll regret it. And how I wish she could understand and support it no matter what. But I couldn't force her now. Not after I crushed her dream.

I don't know how much longer I could handle this. I don't mind not being her best one anymore, I just need her not to ignore me. How could I make things right, now that she completely shut me down?

Good start

2008-01-07T02:34:00.000+01:00

Saya pass! I'm officially SAP certified! I made it!

And now I can definitely get this!

Why 2007 was a great year

2008-01-02T17:48:00.000+01:00

1. Graduated on March after 5 years of struggling!

2. Returned to Malaysia for good.

3. Reunited with families and friends that I didn't get to see during those 5 years.

4. Got my hands on my first designer handbags.

5. Celebrated first puasa and raya in Malaysia after 5 years.

6. Got my driving license

7. Was offered a job in my dream company.

8. With better paid :)

9. Went to Singapore. Yippeee!

10. Ended with a-day-to-remember anniversary celebration :)

Happy New Year 2008!

Tell me how

2007-12-31T12:47:00.001+01:00

Kenapa awak nak jadi PTD?

Can someone tell me how on earth I should answer this question when I really don't want that job??

I'm really confused. Here I am, loving every bit of my current job, yet my parents want me to excel in another interview that I don't even have the heart to go. All I can think of now is sabotaging the interview but they are so happy I got the call. So tell me how can I do it without even feeling guilty?

:)

2007-12-30T16:58:00.000+01:00

Thanks for the lovely weekend. I love you ;P.

Perfect

2007-12-26T13:20:00.002+01:00

It was the holiday I've been waiting for since forever! It was a perfect timing too, now that I'm done with the dreadful exam! Thank God!

Singapore, as I remembered, was amazing. I love every inch of it.

Although, there were a few unexpected incidents happened during the first few hours of the arrival. We reached Singapore 2 hours earlier, 4am to be exact. So we took a nap until 7am at the lobby of the hotel nearby before heading to our hotel.

We arrived at the hotel at 8, only to find out how filthy the room was. We immediately got online to find cheaper and better rooms that we can get for such short notice. Long story short, after several phone calls, we managed to book rooms for 6 people. The only downside is, we still have to pay half of the room we canceled for.

Since that awful incidents, all we did in Singapore was SHOPPING! We painted the town red until none of us could even walk anymore! We were lucky to arrive on the day they started their Christmas sale. Hence, everything was so affordable even in Singapore dollar, no kidding! And I was more than happy to pay for my first Guess Premium jeans, with 70% off! Shut up!

Only on the very last day, I realized I’ve packed an extra suitcase worth of stuff! But I was having the greatest time there, that what counts right?

On my cousin's wedding

2007-12-03T13:28:00.000+01:00

Crazy busy

2007-11-18T12:45:00.000+01:00

iTunes: La La La Kerjalah - Meet Uncle Hussain

Busy, busy, busy. Tensen, tensen, tensen.

If things aren't getting better by next week, I might be the next workaholic. Hahaha. No lah! Only that things got out of hands lately, which forced me to work extra hours. For instance:

1. I'm officially started doing session this week and pity me, I've got the worst system among all.

2. I was so damn slow that it took me 4 days to finish a session

3. I have PTD assessment last Friday - I took a leave that day

4. I have to study for my exam, which is in 3 weeks time

People told me to slow down but like that's going to help! I CAN'T! I have to speed everything up in order to catch up with others! PRONTO! And although the #4 sounds like as simple as it could be, it's really not. I have exactly 21 days before the certification and if you forget, I work. With recent workloads, I can only reach home around 10 something. So that leave me with 3 weekends. BUT, my dear cousin will be getting married next weekend and next next weekend. So that leave me with 1 weekend. How is that even possible?

You tell me!

In denial

2007-10-28T16:48:00.000+01:00

If I update this blog more frequent than I used to, it's NOT a good sign.

In the past few days, the mood swing has struck quite regularly than I anticipated. The only thing that could divert my attention from it, are work, work and work. Besides, I have exams coming up in a month and 'kem bina negara' in the next two weeks so, that keep me busy too, I guess.

By the way, anyone interested to watch James Morisson on November 29th? I really, really want to go tapi takde teman la :(

Red shoes

2007-10-25T09:47:00.001+02:00

In the spirit of brightening up my day, I wore the only red shoes I own, to work. Although it might be a weird mix but who cares right? I remember wearing it only once before as it was awfully painful after 5 minutes walk. But not today. Today, it did not fail me. So that sum up to a good day!

Don't you think these Marc Jacobs shoes look similar to mine?

Time, privacy

2007-10-24T15:11:00.000+02:00

iTunes: 4 In The Morning - Gwen Stefani

I notice that I've been talking less lately, I mean outside the office. And I feel lonely. I guess it is something I need to get used to these days. Zero social life.

Not like I have nothing to talk about - Raya celebration, the new job, the new exciting workplace etc. Did I mention my office is a block away from Pavilion and 10 minutes walk to KLCC? Did I mention I have my first Tony Roma's lunch today? Did I mention that my team already suggested me to teach them German after work? Did I mention that I travel 4 hours forth and back everyday? Yes, EVERY SINGLE DAY! I got tonnes of things to babble on here but so little time. Weekends now are even busier than the weekdays. Open houses, visits from abah's and mak's families and friends. I have to involve in every visits without excuses, like I have no choice. Everyone wants to meet that daughter who just came back from Germany. At one time, I have to repeat the same German stories like 5 times a day. And until today, I couldn't even find time to watch McDreamy yet although the latest season is already in my hard disk since last month. Because I don't have time! And privacy!

That's something I couldn't afford for now, privacy. Living with parents at the age of 26 can sometimes be hard especially when your mom still treat you like a 6 years old girl. I couldn't remember the last time I actually cried my eyes out. Like today when I really wanted to, I couldn't find the better place for it. Pathetic kan?

I wish for bright sunny day tomorrow. I don't think I can hold this tears any longer.

Selamat Hari Raya

2007-10-20T05:04:00.000+02:00

So happy to celebrate my first Raya in Malaysia after 5 years.

Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir Batin.

The long version

2007-10-05T18:27:00.002+02:00

Last month I received a phone call from my dream company, asking me to attend their interview. I was psyched, tried not to expect too much. I got another call later last week for the second good news, I was accepted!

Ever since, life has been pretty much in a fast phase. The resignation on the next day, a week notice instead of a month, medical check up, lots of explanation to be made to clarify the situation, tonnes of documents to sign, scan and email, plus the change request that I was supposed to do this month. I've been staying up late, sick and super stress that I almost burned out.

Don't get me wrong, I am happy with the offer. Of course I do! But I laid out a plan before leaving the company. I want to leave in good term, serving them notice they deserve and finish what I have started. I want to spend more time with my RHB friends, at least spending raya with them. But it was all in rush, which make me wonder if all this really worth it.

Today, bunch of friends surprised me with a trip to bowling alley. I've never played but for all the effort they made, all I can do is at least throw the ball to longkang. It was fun and I was touched. I've never taught a group of people I knew for only 2 months can at least treat me the way they did. I almost cried. I truly did. And on the way home, I didn't sleep at all. It's mesmerizing looking at pictures of us goofing around for the very last time. I don't know, we promised to keep in touch. We promised to meet up once in a while. But I know these kinda promises. It's something you said because it's appropriate at the time. Something that really hard to keep. Something that only nature could explain. You move on, meeting new friends, you forget the friends you used to hang out with. Even if you do keep in touch, it would never be the same. Not like before when you meet them everyday.

For now, I am totally going to miss them. A LOT. And I hope things will get better at the new place. If not, I'd sure to regret this. Kidding.

Leave me alone

2007-09-28T15:47:00.000+02:00

I couldn't stand him!

Ever since I broke the news of my resignation, he kept following me around, asking me about the job I recently got. And with my last day just around the corner, I couldn't afford listening to every single word came out from his mouth. I got a mass of work to do too, you know!

Arghhh and the plan. The plan of working in the same company as mine. He really drives me nutssss!

Accepted

2007-09-24T17:13:00.000+02:00

I got accepted!

I attended their interview last month and thought I did my best. I waited, waited and waited. Only today, they announced the bestest news I heard in months! I got the job!!!!

Berbuka puasa

2007-09-23T09:06:00.000+02:00

Fixed!

2007-07-19T14:42:00.000+02:00

I mended my first error today and it felt soooooo good!

Three days ago

2007-07-14T20:02:00.001+02:00

Wednesday

Things started to 'heat up' today when bank user handed over an error in the system that required an immediate fix. While I was still in training and pretty much unprepared, I got no choice but to think of any possible solution to amend it. I didn't even know where to start! Shamefully, I failed to deliver the task and only God knows how terrible that made me feel. I must have underestimated the job, which something I should be concerned of now. I mean, how could I manage to support and maintain the solution for the next six months alone. A-L-O-N-E!

I hate myself!

Thursday

I screwed up my JPJ test. Bahagian tapak!

Friday

I went out for another shopping trip. Found nothing fancy to buy. Later that evening, I accidentally tried on a pig linen shoes. Stupid salesgirl forgot to label them! Then, on the way to Cineleisure, I saw someone with the Anya's bag. Envy!

The only highlight from these three miserable days is watching Transformers, which finally happening after three weeks of Friday outings. But it was so worth it!

I missed it!

2007-07-08T16:47:00.000+02:00

iTunes: Umbrella - Rihanna featuring Jay Z

Since last week, my RSS feed was piled up with news either on iPhone or Anya's I'm Not A Plastic Bag releases. I, on the other hand, couldn't get hold of any of it!

I signed up for the bag since May and sadly I was still on the second list. First listers got the bag, which means that second list doesn't. So, I have to queue as early as 6.30 am to grab it! Well technically, I didn't actually queue for it. I planned to by the way, but my boss chose just the right time to send me to RHB, which is on Thursday. It felt wrong taking mc on my second day there, so I begged my sister to go. Unfortunately for her, waiting outside the store for three hours still didn't pay off. Kesian dia. I received the news by noon, when the unlimited bag was already sold out. Haihhh. At least she tried. Rumor has it that people were already there since 4.00 am! I know, CRAZY!!!!

Hopefully, I'll be ready for iPhone next year, which I have no idea when.

Shopping trip

2007-07-07T16:28:00.000+02:00

I woke up today in a shopping mood, so that exactly what I did. The best part was all the favorite stores are having sale right now - Zara, MNG, Topshop, FCUK. Even so, there were like zillions of people in Mid Valley, which spoiled my mood a bit. Queues for fitting rooms, cashiers, restaurant - everywhere, you just can't escape from it!

I thought Topshop dresses and blouses are nice, although the Kate Moss collection is so overrated and overprice! Zara, MNG got the best sale ever and no doubt the crowdest stores among all. Who could ever resist cute dresses for RM45 to RM70!! I went all out trying to find sizes, which were quite plenty! I, however, was most frustrated with FCUK for declaring all the great stuff as non sale items. Even the bag I want was taken away during the sale, as I expected. Benci!

Anyhow, I've already planned for the next shopping trip soon. Can't wait! And hopefully this time I manage to snatch tickets for Transformers!

Outsourced

2007-06-30T14:30:00.000+02:00

Ok, here an update. I'll be outsourced to RHB for the next 6 months, after only 3 weeks of working. Hahahhaha...

To be quite frank, I was reluctant to go at first. But now, after days of thinking, I was more than happy to accept it. Why you may ask, but I'm not gonna tell. Hahahahaha...

Sorry, I just couldn't contain my excitement.

iPhone's out

2007-06-29T23:56:00.000+02:00

It's out and drop dead gorgeous! I'm ready for m.c's, camping outside the store, anything. Anything for this!

Catching up

2007-06-24T12:56:00.000+02:00

Life as an unprofessional programmer isn't fun at all. I hate it in fact. It's bad enough everyone knows java like the back of their hands, I have to catch up all the java, jsp, struts, xml and oracle in just a week. Don't ask me how the progress is. By the time I figured out how to write a function, others already did the third one. I was terribly slow.

Only this week, I managed to comprehend most of the stuff. Although there were a lot of copy and paste of the existing codes involved, I think I have learnt quite loads. And after three weeks, I guess I'm starting to adjust to this whole working thing.

Whilst I could complain endlessly about my job - the traveling, the workload, the long hours, I guess it's better to just go with the flow at the moment. Who knows things might work out great soon.

Busy Sunday

2007-06-10T02:18:00.000+02:00

Today, I have an early morning driving lesson to attend to, packing for Bukit Jelutong and grocery shopping.

And tomorrow will be my very first day at work.

This week has been super crazy with my parents going to Sydney, the driving lessons and the walk-in-interviews. Time seemed to be flying faster than I am these days and I'm just barely keeping up. But working life sure would be much worse!

It's 2.16 on Sunday morning, yet I'm already nervous thinking of being late on my first day, unable to complete the given task and meeting people for the first time. Takutttt...

Emil

2007-06-07T13:43:00.003+02:00

Emil: Awak dah makan?

Emilda: Dah, kat luar tadi.

Emil: Oh yer ker. Saya ingat nak makan dengan awak. Saya tunggu awak.

Emilda: Sorry saya dah kenyang!

Emil: Habis tu awak tak nak temankan saya?

Ahhhhh, sukenya saya kat Emil dalam Emil Emilda tu! Hensem banget! The teasing, the macho act. Haihhh, buat saya angau seh! Hehheheh..

Up and running

2007-06-01T19:43:00.000+02:00

iTunes: Million Faces - Paolo Nutini

I got a job offer in PJ, which I didn't expect and hope to get. For starters, I was interviewed for a different position than the one I applied for. Then, the office is not strategic enough. As I'm still in the process of getting my driving license, my only alternative now is public transport, which from what I heard, is hardly available.

I still attend interviews to get better place, but I doubt there would be any reply anytime soon. Like it or not, I just have to accept that job. The money is good, plus stuff from my list needs to be crossed out ASAP. Like the FCUK bag I was drooling over for months, the MNG skinny jeans, etc. I really need to do this!

By the way, did I mention I'll be dealing with lots and lots of programming? Yes, I realize how impossible that is, but what choice do I have?

Breakdown

2007-04-22T19:55:00.000+02:00

iTunes: Izinku Pergi - Kaer Azami

I had a breakdown. But I'm ok now.

After getting things done a few minutes ago, it feels like a huge relief. Bodohnya, crying over small matter! But how could I knew it was that simple then.

Anyway, thank you so much for being such good listeners. Sayang kamu!

I've started job hunting today. So, wish me luck ok!

Element of cuteness

2007-04-19T14:24:00.000+02:00

I was surprised to find out that this Anya Hindmarch's I’m Not a Plastic Bag was sold for only 5 pound! Consider murah la kan since it is in fact a Anya Hindmarch bag! It was reportedly sold out within 2 hours of its release. This fashionable shopping bag will be launched in U.S. on June but I have no idea if it's going to be available here anytime soon. Sigh.

Anyway, do these shoes remind you of chocolate? Cute, kan?

Desperate

2007-04-17T02:10:00.000+02:00

iTunes: Berdua Lebih Baik - Acha Septriasa

I recently executed a very nice plan but failed miserably.

After a lot of thinking (nampak sangat aku takde keje), I decided to borrow the BF's money to get the LV bag. It sounds desperate, I know, but come to think of it, I could avoid losing RM2400 in a blink of an eye. So yesterday, I walked him through the "long term" loan plan and as usual, he said yes. But of course the loan comes with a price, la kan. I kinda expected the motivational speech soon after the news and I've prepared myself with explanations incase he needs one. But it's hard to defend myself when I already knew that I was obviously on the wrong side. Come on, clearly I wasn't thinking right here. But, I LOVE the bag! Seriously!

And later, as he started talking about the future, our future, I know I couldn't win anymore. Should I keep hoping?

So, how?

2007-04-13T19:29:00.000+02:00

So I went to the store yesterday. Yes, they're out of stock. But I put my name down on one for u. They'll receive new stock every week. So if u really want the bag, u can take it. SA will call me if the stock has arrived & I'll let u know.

Confuse la.

Someone I recently knew, gave me this news today. So now I might stand a chance to purchase the Damier Azur bag once the new stock arrives. Awesome, right? But should I buy it? It's really, really expensive, you know. Money isn't the problem, I guess, but I wasn't sure about paying a large amount of money just for a bag. Maybe my first month salary wouldn't pay as much as that. Even this morning, when I joked about getting it, my mom totally flipped out! Membazir yang amat, katanya.

Should I snap it up now? If I miss this chance, who knows when I'll have a chance to get it next time!

So, how?

Wish list: Louis Vuitton Damier Azur Speedy

2007-04-10T17:14:00.000+02:00

Haihhh... why la I still can't let this go?

I've never fancied any of the LV collection. But ever since I saw someone wearing the bag last week, I couldn't stop talking about it. I want it so bad. Tak tahan!!! The bag was available in eluxury.com for a few hours last weekend and then vanished. I was later informed that the Damier Azur collection was already released in Malaysia since December and sold out so fast. Kesian tau, saya!

Come to think of it, even if it's still available, I might have to think twice before getting it. Considering that I'm jobless right now, RM2400 would be very very impossible.

26

2007-04-02T15:55:00.000+02:00

iTunes: Itu Kamu - Estranged

People say 26 is just a number. Ye ke?

I didn't expect anything special for my birthday this year. But it turned out great actually. Aside from celebrating my birthday with family and the bf, I also received fabulous handbags and a very delicious Secret Recipe raspberry cheese cake. Terharu sangat! Dan saya sungguh teruja celebrate birthday di Malaysia after 5 years!

Terima kasih semua!

Itu Kamu
by Estranged

Segala yang ku pasti akan aku capai 'tuk mengambil hatimu
Melepasi angkasa cintaku
Sesudah aku melafazkan kesemua yang diperlu
Ianya seperti suluhan yang terang

Segala yang kau ragui akan ku padam habis dari hatimu
Mengingkari dalaman akalmu
Takkan puas ku, mengiringi semua tawa dan tangisanmu
Anggun wajahmu, pelita yang terang

Hatiku mahu mu
Rupamu
Masih masih masih masih

Kau terindah
Masih ada
Yang tercantik
Itu kamu

Tiada mengapa taupun sampai bila kerna cinta enggan kenal mengalah
Memanah masuk hatiku yang reti
Setelah kau nampak tetap ku masih menunjukkan erti hidupku
Yang mahu bersama kau buat selamanya

Jobless

2007-03-25T18:57:00.000+02:00

Haiyaaa, I really need to start job hunting.

Ever since I returned home, the only thing I did was either staring endlessly at the tv box or shopping. Not that I'm complaining or anything. But living in Malaysia, regardless of what you do, even doing nothing, still required money. Since I only brought back some of the money home, it became less and less even faster. I bought a GAP skinny jean, which I have no idea where and when to wear it, a skincare that cost almost the same as the jean, and body shop body lotion that costs me like half of the jean. Worse, last week Piz brought me to this place at Bangsar which was so like heaven when it comes to shopaholic like me. How can you get Zara or MNG lookalike baby doll dress for just RM39? You tell me.

So now, with a maxis line and daily expenses, I don't think I'm allowed to be jobless for a long time.

Any job offer will be a huge help, thank you.

Home

2007-03-12T11:14:00.000+01:00

iTunes: Slow Dancing In A Burning Room - John Mayer

I'm home, finally!!!!

I just got my internet connection back, so i'll update more later ok. Oh by the way, I missed Deutschland. Sungguh tak ku sangka!

Sick

2007-03-01T12:17:00.000+01:00

I hate being sick!

And it came on the worst time of my life. I'm flying home on March 5th and I wanted to have my very last shopping in Germany. But now from the look of it, I might have stay home for the rest of the week!

I'm so going to miss H&M!

My last week in Deutschland

2007-02-26T01:59:00.000+01:00

iTunes: Not Ready To Make Nice - Dixie Chicks

I thought sending the final thesis will be the end of it, but I was so wrong.

I handed in the printed version last Wednesday, but there were so many things to do that I wasn't able to feel the joy of it. Since then, I've been packing everything in boxes in less than 48 hours, settling all the documents regarding my Diplom certificate etc. Even right now, I'm still facing so much of uncertainties that I ended up crying like a mad woman.

I have plan on how to spend my very last week here but looking at my to do list, it's definitely not going to be fun. There is always something needed to be done almost everyday and I have exactly 5 weekdays, you know. And a weekend. Frustnyee!!!

I'm still hoping for my very last shopping this Friday, no matter what!

Untitled

2007-02-12T02:38:00.000+01:00

Yeay, yeay... Saya dah antar final draft! Esok boleh pegi shoppinggggg!!!!

According to the plan

2007-02-10T17:43:00.000+01:00

I'm running out of time. It's 5:38 am and I'm so freaking nervous.

I have a plan. I set on speeding up my thesis, although my submission is not due til April. I already had everything planned and it wasn't anyone's choice, it's mine. So for the past 3 months, that is what I do - the one and only thesis. I might be slacking off here and there, but I do work hard for this. To make sure I can be home early March. According to the plan, by this Monday, I should be emailing the final draft. If possible, I could get everything printed by 14th and submit the thesis to the professor and exam board by 15th. But now, I'm not so sure anymore.

According to the plan, in the next 3 weeks, I'll be handing in my thesis to the professor, informing JPA that their service is no longer needed, packing stuff for shipping and moving out, spring cleaning the room I've been living for 5 years, applying the return ticket and closing down all the accounts I have here. In between that, I plan on having my very last shopping too, if time allows.

And I have exactly 21 days to settle all the things I just listed. Is that even possible?

Al-Fatihah II

2007-01-25T21:59:00.000+01:00

I'm swamped with work. The thesis is in good progress, but I might have to speed everything up to get it ready before mid February. And I have my very last paper next week too so you know how stressful that could be.

But with all that happened this week, there is just something I have no control of. Something I couldn't fix. In the middle of this, I received another bad news from the family. My aunt died from lung cancer this afternoon (around 11:33p.m, Malaysia time) and I was trying my best to take it all in. It happened so fast and the next thing I know, she's gone. But really, there's nothing else I could do but pray for her. I hope you will too.

Sick

2007-01-24T01:41:00.000+01:00

I'm not really used of taking panadol everyday before going to bed. But with the drastic change of weather and late night sleep in the last few days, I just have to. Fever, bad cough, headache lagi. Haihhhh...

Thank God, it's snowing today. Totally brighten my day!

Anyway, you get better too ok. I miss you.

Logical thinking

2007-01-23T00:35:00.000+01:00

iTunes: If The Rain Must Fall - James Morrison

Ok, here's something you should know. I'm not good at programming and if you ask me what's wrong with your computer, I might stare at the ceiling for a few second, pretending to find the answer and after a long awkward pause, I might just say no.

Am I proud of that? No.

Just now, I have a conversation with a close friend, and she said something that I wish I wouldn't care. I know people has an exciting stuff planned for their final thesis. Programming, experimenting, lab work, designing something that they think would be part of future innovation bla bla bla. But, I did none of that. I basically read about something that was discovered the year I was born, write what I read, elaborate in a way I understand it and then, compare it with another thing that was also discovered decades ago. I know, boring! Logic, logic, logic!! But with JPA's extension time frame and the pressure to finish everything as soon as possible so that I could FINALLY go home for good, I took the job. Besides, the professor is so great and flexible that I can settle everything with just a knock on a door. And the read, write thing is totally harmless as no practical work involved, meaning no failed experiment to be fixed in such short notice or possibility to extend the deadline to redo the whole lab work. And programming related stuff can be avoided. There you go!

Although it wasn't my very first choice, I'm pretty much satisfied with what I've decided on. Up until now.

Am I an idiot to be complaining about this??

My holiday

2007-01-12T03:43:00.000+01:00

iTunes: Bold As Love - John Mayer

Ok, now the post I've been drafted for a while.

My mom is okay now, that's a great news.

Unlike everyone, I didn't have any vacation stories to share this time around. The only money left in my account only allows me to go around Stuttgart and Reutlingen. My shopping habit is pretty much slowed down this past few week although there was end-of-year sale everywhere. I only tailed Hafiz around this holiday, shopping for his stuff. We went to outlet, Stuttgart and yet, I didn't buy anything. It's either too crowded or still too expensive. Or better, shopping in Germany isn't really as great as you imagine it would be. Trust me!

Anyway, my holiday was pretty much involving sitting around at Hafiz's or mine, shopping and movies. Instead of finishing the thesis, we pretty much did nothing. So, my holiday was pretty lame as you might put it. But I love it and I had my fun.

So, the bags are finally here. Thanks to Mael for granting my wishes. I'm pretty much satisfied with everything. So happy!!

Wish list: iPhone

2007-01-11T02:17:00.000+01:00

Here's something to look forward to in 2008.

My 15 minutes entry

2007-01-08T01:53:00.000+01:00

iTunes: You Give Me Something - James Morrison

I'd love to update on my vacationless holiday but I'm pretty much occupied with the thesis for now. I was busy procrastinating last Christmas that I have all the time to watch the movies I missed last year. The Pursuit of Happyness, The Last Kiss, Blood Diamond, Little Miss Sunshine, Step Up, Take the Lead, My Super Ex-Girlfriend, you name it! So now, I'm basically finishing up the second draft, which supposed to be submitted today!

Ok, my 20 minutes break is up. See if I can post something later, but don't hold your breath.

My new year

2007-01-02T03:25:00.000+01:00

Al-Fatihah

2006-12-30T22:55:00.000+01:00

A'kum.. Jaja,
Wan dah meninggal dunia...

Everything went blank after that. Shocked, guilty and I remembered crying a lot.

Please, if you read this, sedekahkan Al-Fatihah to arwah. Thank you.

Rant-free post

2006-12-22T14:35:00.000+01:00

iTunes: Like a Star - Corinne Bailey Rae

Sorry, the previous entry is long overdue.

I have no idea what to write. I've been whining too much this past few years that I'm out of things to complain nowadays. That's good, right?

December flew too fast. I guess wasting time all day might be the only reason I felt that way.

Hafiz & co already started talking about shipping stuff back home yet surprisingly, I'm not even excited. I know I've been waiting for this moment since the first year I've been here but now it's 2 months away, I felt like I'm not ready. Weird. Maybe there's too much to look forward to, Diplomarbeit... Hmmm... Well, that's it. Just the Diplomarbeit.

I went to Stuttgart last Monday to accompany Hafiz for his balik Malaysia shopping. I thought I'm going to take time finding stuff for myself too but apparently, shopping for myself is never fun. I have the worst habit when it comes to shopping. I've never made list, I normally have nothing important to buy but end up shopping for the whole year, I always take the longest time in fitting room and I'm so picky. Sometimes I might be going back and forth the same shop, just to pick the right pair of pants. And even if I'm satisfied with the purchase, as soon as I get home, I'll end up regretting it. So when he offered to follow me shopping for something that day, I declined and followed him instead, to buy stuff for his mom. I returned today for another round of shopping but went home empty handed. I know, what a loser!

So psyched for the weekend, the 29th, New Year (Thanks Mael!!!!) and snow. I miss snow!

Cinta Daisy

2006-12-12T09:19:00.000+01:00

I watched Cinta last weekend. But in between enjoying the movie and writing this, I watched a Korean movie called Daisy. I missed the good points of Cinta, since Daisy is more memorable and as shameful as it is, made me ball like a baby.

Cinta was expectedly slow but still a good watch. It's definitely not a Yasmin Ahmad movie which made me relish it even more. It was not overdone, simple and in some parts, lovely. I'm not going to review, but if you still have doubt, click here. And surprisingly, out of the 5 stories, Cikgu Elyas and Makcik Rubiah's story that touched me the most. Although they are the oldest couple, their love story is definitely the fresh one, which I haven't seen in any Malay movie before. I love the fact that they made the "legend" to be Alzheimer and how amusing it is to see Rubiah and his grandson deal with that. My favorite scene in the movie was during Rubiah followed Cikgu Elyas the whole day to find out what he's been up to everyday in his life. They look incredibly sweet, which almost made me in tears in one part of the movie. Let's not talk about that ok. I might cry if I watch it alone, which I will give it a try again this weekend.

But Daisy, oh Daisy. Daisy is a lot better. I cried although I watched it with someone else. It's slow but not dragging, sweet but not the one that make you puke and although it has a tragic end, it's still a perfect ending. I love it. I still couldn't believe I actually cried for this one, rather than Cinta! And I'm not even a fan of any Korean movies, so imagine that!

Anyway, give Cinta a try. You might like it.